It's raining...outside and inside!! and I am sick, still and I am weak yet...life is a bit messy, unpredictable and even unstable...but its gonna be fine...I cross my heart!!

True colors...true me...and the true definite fear of sublimation in your eyes! I'm perhaps just a click away from your heart whilst we are thousand miles away from each others see shores...and I'm looking forward to your hands to reach me...to teach me...and to release my brain cells with the slightest idea of togetherness!!!

Dear rationality, please go fuck yourself!!

I open the door...I see you...let you in...no words...just tied looks...you sit....I sit...and we look at each other forever...as we are in heaven!!

Please happen!!

-Let's be clear! This is me with all the good and bad stuff...flesh, bones, brain, heart...

--Heart????

-ya, I have one...no matter what color but it's mine. Can't you see it? I have one...and I deserve one...to be mine...just mine...entirely...

 --Do you know how to keep it?

-I do, I do...and believe me, I am easy, like a Sunday!!

--Silence!!!!!!!!!

I'm not scared...but who guarantees the proper shape of happiness?? NO ONE... gotta risk it and try it and experience it and feel it and grab it and keep it and enjoy it...and you know what, who cares if it fails as long as it tastes good? and that's the main issue...well, let's see :))

A very much different birthday!

God knows how many messages, e-mails, phone calls I received! Not that I am proud of it, but i just felt there are still few people who really care! There are still souls that I can think of at difficulties! 

I just wish I could be less bitter these days! 

Happy birthday, live in the moments and don't say you don't give a shit. It's life and you are a fucking miserable part of it. Put yourself together and finish the race and remember you don't need to win always. Just let it go...PLEASE!

Welcome to 40!!

you never know what is gonna happen next. Life could be so unpredictable and shocking...and we as individuals are part of it, and could be unpredictable too, as we are most of the time...

Sometimes I feel I am a different person every morning I wake up!!!!!

Has started raining heavily...this means getting stuck at home or lab!! but it could not be more beautiful... though I hate being wet, still....!!!!