This ME scares me sometimes...it looks so unfamiliar sometimes...and boring...I feel I have been degraded so badly that I can't repair it ever....I still fight it...but it looks so outside my power to maintain the balance..."Better days will come" is what i keep telling myself...what if I'm already living in better days?? What if I'm just unable to see it?? and millions of more "what if"s....!!!!

The minimum understanding of the current political situation of middle east and particularly my country is enough to make us all feel sick. The never ending battle for money and power which sacrifices regular people...and I am gonna live there!!!

Listening to Namjoo, drinking coffee and smoking in a bloody rainy day...couldn't feel any better :)

Had a wonderful Singaporean Sling at Raffles...plus nice music...plus nice company...gosh, Mat was awesome :)

 

Do I go, or will I stay??

You exist....and I desperately try to deny it....you...you who opened me like an unread book...you who showed me illusions....you who filled me with some different version of love....you who released me of all the lashings...you who renovated me....and as the best part you who let go of me!!

I am sure, I will meet you again...someday....and then, you will have a good time with me...I am sure we will laugh more..we will have fun more...we will live more...

I miss you...
I know you read this, I can feel it....!!

It's time...It's time to face it...I need to go...I need to fly....where is home???

Had a wonderful night with some unknown people!! some random people that I just met, danced with, drank with and shared smiles...

now i just wanna freeze the time, fold it and jump to some moments I had in past...cherish them...smell them...and let them go!!

You, though, will stay!!

Don't get confused...I'm with you...will not stay with you, but I'm with you!!!!
Who am I talking to anyway??????!!!!!!

Breathe into my hands; I'll cup them like a glass to drink from...

Are you still, still breathing?
Are you still,
Breathing?
Are you still, still breathing?
Are you still,
Breathing?

Breathe into my hand; I'll cup them like a glass to drink from..

I told her, in her face, that the long term relationship's concept is not valid to me anymore....

that I'm not sure if sharing everything with someone is doable....

that "love" and it's all ups and downs sound ridiculous to me...

that we never know what's gonna happen and that makes us disqualified to depend someone to us...

that we, as humans, are all selfish, irrespective....

that trust has validity and expiration date....

that we finally learn how painful it is to survive....

that we don't have much time to waste and we better enjoy it's every moment....

that this space is my one and only trustworthy existence....

that all I said doesn't help me not to think about you!!!