Nil thinks I am not helping myself by just accepting the recent changes and not preventing being captured....she is right perhaps, but these are the symptoms and she doesn't get it. The sickness is the sickness! sharp and deep and for some , there is no treatment. I am ruined and broke and I feel it with each and every inch of my entire existence and I smile, less though!!!!
And this is not an overreaction.
This is honest.
This is your fault!
This is my fault!