One thesis is dispatched!
Two referees have not sent the acceptance yet.
Will need few days to figure out who is there in the final panel...

I gotta start drinking...will start with a bottle of beer maybe, tonight!!

I didn't experience such a bad throat infection in years....high fever which brings body ache and weakness...

and have to go to lab as the boss is around again and I need him to finish up some issues....

God...I feel so bad right now, the antibiotic dosage is doubled today...I wish my weak body can handle it.... :(

I am done...with you...and now I am so sure why....

I know, I make mistakes...like everyone else...and I know that my heart is still kind and cool...and I know that I have been changed...like everyone else... and I feel so good now, because I finally figured it out...I know what happened, what went wrong and why it was out of our hands to repair it...and it's so surprising that how loving someone wont let us see the actual scenario...

Dear creator, thank you for not creating me a super romantic person...thank you for empowering my logic...thank you for letting me to be me!!

-Touching the CV and the cover letter, implementing all I have to make it work, and shooting it to as many places as I can...
Here I come!

-Mentally in a very very bad mood...Just need to focus and think. I am gonna do it. I am gonna find it!!

Black coffee in lab, after such a long time pleases me fairly deep inside...
The problem is, I have no clue what is gonna make me happy!!
Will u??

Back to work and life...
Referee panel is approved which means another 3 months to viva!

I met the new flat owner today, he is cool and will give me the key by tonight or tomorrow.

Rest is same shit, as usual!!

Mom left today, after a month almost...and I felt how far I have gone...so away from many things...or better to say how far I have been pushed!!
Nothing seems special, absolutely nothing!
and I need nothing...

Well,
The thesis is submitted on 21st March 2012....
Time is running and it seems I must think about the real part of my life....
Mom arrives tomorrow and I am gonna meet her after 4 years...how do I feel?...wired....I need to be good...act good...look good...

man...I need a job!

مانده تا سینی ما پرشود از صحبت سنبوسه و عید

در هوایی که نه افزایش یک ساقه طنینی دارد
و نه آواز پری می رسد از روزن منظومه برف
تشنه زمزمه ام
مانده تا مرغ سرچینه هذیانی اسفند صدا بردارد
پس چه باید بکنم
من که در لخت ترین موسم بی چهچه سال
تشنه زمزمه ام؟
بهتر آن است که برخیزیم
رنگ را بردارم

روی تنهایی خود نقشه مرغی بکشم

Confession: I am depressed and I guess it's becoming a bit serious!
Reasons: Everything around me, wrong place, people, time etc. etc.
Solution: hahahahahahaha
:-|