--I need a decoder...to decodes me...like anyone else...
and to start, I found a DVD full of old songs I used to listen to...!!!!
I am not sure but whether it encodes me or decodes!

--Have u ever leaned on anyone?
how does it taste?
How does it feel?
How??!!?!!

Twenty Year : by Placebo

There are twenty years to go
and twenty ways to know
who will wear
who will wear the hat.

.....
............

You're the truth not I.
You're the truth not I.
You're the truth not I.
You're the truth not I.

Trust me...
I am the worst choice you may have in your life...and I can prove it to you!
Just watch out!!

-Its Damn cloudy outside...and inside either...
Why the hell I can't install "xmakemole" on my machine?!
crap...
Have to change my "C" compiler I guess...but I love the challenge...feels good...!
:)

-I wanna try disconnection...Don't look for me and don't worry for me.
I just need some extra-pain, extra-cheese in my life..!!!!!


-"I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life...
Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life..."

I feel tired on Monday morning, starting day of the week!!
and this sucks...
Thank god that I still I have the sweet taste of Germany-England match, although it will be mixed with Argentina's bitterness soon amigo!

My coffee is ready...:)

Wonderful German win
an amazing 10 hrs. not yet finished Wimbeldon match
beer
endless cigarettes
loneliness
Leoness
you,not around
confusion
work not going well
all summed up and divided by zero gives infinity !!!!

This is how I make out things scientifically!!!

were speaking together...as usual...as almost everyday....
and she asked me: why don't you change your interest and gender status in FB?
.....
and I did!
huh...

Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter - Official Video

doosti akhiran behem goft:

ye joorayee nemishe toro delete kard...
nemishe azat gozasht....
nemishe az fekret oomad biroon....
nemishe moroor nakard...
oooohhhhhhh

مزه‌ام عوض شده..
خودم حس می‌کنم...
شده یه مخلوطی از ترش و تلخ که تهش به شیرینی‌ می‌زنه...اونم واسه اینکه ولم نکنی‌ بری!!!
فک کنم این کمر دارد لعنتی هم یه کم شورش کنه به زودی!!!!!!

I am trapped at home suffering a sever back pain.. :(
and what hurts more is the latest news regarding my HD's that are not recovered and my whole data seems to be gone with the wind...!!!!

az in behtar nemishe...

-It's showering outside...got stuck in lab. and forced to work :D
Here we go....

--Viva Germany...Australia had nothing much to say really, and Germany was perfect!

---Suddenly I feel I can hear things differently!!! and this is too good! I feel very relaxed and back to my ground state... and this feels weird and awesome....

After couple of fucked up days, I finally ended with a wonderful weekend...a one and half day trip to a far village on top of a mountain after 1.5 hrs walking through a dens and very beautiful forest...reaching to a humanless point...no mobile...no connection with all the pain I had in my head...
and now,totally refreshed...waiting for the next chapter to come...
I knew it!

I don't know if these signs are real or not...
My network card fails today and I have no access...no internet,no ssh,nothing....

Could someone pass my message to God that try more if you want to fuck me up!!! Because I will fight you BACK, no matter what....!!

Ba'ale!

Delam Mulshi mikhad...
Delam nature mikhad...tabiat...kooh...roodkhoone...
Delam mikhad beshinam o be sedaaye aab goosh bedam faghat...
Delam mikhad koole poshtimo bardaram o beram,bedoone inke bedoonam koja daram miram...
hich chiz mokhareb tar non-stop kaar kardan nist...hich chiz....

I dont feel good today...
This morning I woke up,shivering!!! and now I feel my head weights equal to the whole lab...!!!
I know...every time I panic i become sick...

so many thoughts....in my mind....
so many problems and difficulties and so many answers for all....
so many theories that have never worked....
so many mechanisms that may are not the correct ones!!!

maybe its the time to wind down,to let the wings down.
maybe its the time to forget about sky and flying and all craps...

I need to go to mountains...by some river...and bury all the questions and answers...and start breathing....

come with me!

just check it out:

http://1.proudfa.com/ftopicp-1819.html

I was shocked when I read it:

Maybe you are right but perhaps you need to put your views across more subtly. If you try to force your beliefs on others it can arouse resentment. You will try to keep companions at arms length since you are playing your cards close to your chest and don't want to be manipulated. But you may come across as too controlling. You want elbow room in relationships, so give possessive mates a wide berth. Try not to over-pack your schedule. Find time to wind down.

Marc Anthony - You Sang to Me

گفتم غم تو دارم...گفتا غمت سر آید...

I lost everything...all my data..all modified codes....both the HD's are crashed....
and no fucking recent backup!
I am in an absolute deep shit....and there is no plan B!!!!!!

I had fucking terrible days this week which completed with my hard disc crash this morning...and I have no back up of my data...just hope the second HD has survived...

Mentally I feel a transition at this stage...from a kid to a grown up or vice versa!!!
This morning black coffee tasted more bitter...and I dont know to be satisfied or fucked!

maa berin oon HD sookhtaro bekanim berim too baaghche khakesh konim felan...:(((((....salavaat....