Back to work again and foolishly struggling with a small code for an hr. resulting in headache and anger. and then I came to know that in my input file there was an "i" somewhere by mistake!!
and I felt so insane and pathetic among all these digits that I had to drink another black coffee :p

New year is just around...and it will keep changing, no matter what!
Happy new year dude!

I am sick again...cold this time...and I am really really sick of being sick!
Cant work exactly when I need to do my best.
And there is lack of something in my heart which hurts a lot....and I know what it is and I cant help it...I just wish everything was somehow different and I could shout out loud....
I have to stay in bed,having soup and rest and just think where I am standing.
The world outside is icing and inside either...

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جون ؟؟؟؟..بنزین گرون شده ؟؟!!!....حالا یه شیر مرد میخوام که با بنزین لیتری ٧٠٠ تومن جرأت دختر بازی با ماشین رو داشته باشه!!!...حالا یه شیرزن کنار خیابونی میخوام که فکر کنه هنوز کسی پیدا میشه که با بنزین گرون تومنی بهش سواری مجانی بده !!!..حالا یه کارمند میخوام که جرأت داشته باشه آخر هفته با ماشین کرایه زن و بچه رو ببره امام زاده !!...حالا یه مرد میخوام که کنار خیابون بنزین تموم کنه...حالا یه مجری تلویزیونی بی وجدان میخوام که حرف از افزایش سفرهای نوروزی و غیره بزنه.....حالا یه دولتمرد بی وجدانتر از مجری تلویزیون میخوام که فکر کنه با این وضع مردم، دولتش قراره بیشتر از چند سال عمر کنه

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Happy shab-e yalda, the longest night of the year....
Happy anaar o hendoone o aajil o inaa...
Happy korsi o sarma o aragh sagi o mast o khiyar...
kholase kollan be happy!

--Dealing with a loose motion and stomach cramp, have to keep writing the paper :(

--Watched the latest Woody Allen's movie : "You will meet the tall,dark stranger" and I still vote for VCB.

--It has become bloody cold here....and is hard to leave the bed in morning...but I am happy to have the chance to wear some warm cloths!!

--I have started thinking about marriage!!!!!!
I am done with all my calculations and I reached to the point that some nonsense phrases like: I love u forever, I can't live without you, I can't breath without you, you are the one for me blah blah blah don't actually mean what they content! They mean we are alone and we feel alone and we need to share and we don't want to be left over or etc etc etc. and I am sure that life is much more stable without these unstable words and phrases....

I am strong and I always keep my promises.
I promise to share the values of commitment and trust and loyalty.
I promise to make you happy and excited and help you to do same.
I promise to make you angry sometimes, to help you refreshing your nerves!
I am experienced and have learned how to start, protect or even sometimes end a relationship through many years.

I am who I am and I know you know me.
So,lets think about it...:)

بعضی‌ حرفا،آدما،لحظه ها،عشقا،دلشکستنا،هیجانا،تمنّا ها،شکست ها،حرف ها،آدما،لحظه ها...هیچ وقت،هیچوقت،هیچ وقت،هیچ وقت،هیچ وقت،هیچ هیچ هیچ وقت فراموش نمی‌شن....بیخود زور نزن

تازگی‌ها طعم تلخ و زهرماری عجیبی‌ مثل خوردن یه شات ودکای داغ کله صبح رو شکم خالی‌ که دونه دونه پولکای معدتو میسوزونه، تو رگا م وول وول می‌زنه و متاسفانه چنان حس خوب مزخرفی بهم میده که نمی‌خوام و نمیتونم با هیچی‌ عوضش کنم

Goa is calling...
Beach....the Arabian sea...white sand...unkind sun...and silence!
That's all I need for refreshing.
Leaving tonight and coming back Tuesday night.
ciao...

Was not in mood last few days...it's kinda purification journey that helps to remove the moments and memories you are not interested anymore.
The process was really painful, but I succeeded!

No doubt, logic always wins in my case!! and now I don't remember and don't want any of it....
aakheyshhhhhh :)

It's cold finally...yooohooooo!

Growing is a painful and unfair process that steels all the good memories , kills most of the pleasant innocent emotions and finally makes a monster out of you!!!!

Objection your honor,
I don't wanna grow!
I prefer to go back to my childhood indeed...may I???

Sometimes I get stuck somewhere in my research or life...I feel no ways around, no right or left and no way back even! And more I try, more I sink...
Indeed there is no way but staying still and put...and being patient...it's gonna be alright and I must just give it some time...
Then I see how sky becomes blue and lands turn green and my path...oh god..is just the easiest to pass!

cool! right?!

My co-guide has become the director of NCL...
Now it wanna be impossible to get even his signature, but feels cool to work with such a VIP :)