Have you really decided not to come?? they asked me over and over again....There are these guys, sitting here, next to me...talking to me..and I am somewhere else...nodding occasionally just to be polite...

What are your plans now?? he asked and I proudly said, I'm gonna be a farmer! and he left in shock...

This is different...this is a different part of my life and I never experienced anything quite like it...As I am not a "let it go" being, it may more time for me to adapt...but I have started to like it!

And I can smell a fragrance...