I told her, in her face, that the long term relationship's concept is not valid to me anymore....

that I'm not sure if sharing everything with someone is doable....

that "love" and it's all ups and downs sound ridiculous to me...

that we never know what's gonna happen and that makes us disqualified to depend someone to us...

that we, as humans, are all selfish, irrespective....

that trust has validity and expiration date....

that we finally learn how painful it is to survive....

that we don't have much time to waste and we better enjoy it's every moment....

that this space is my one and only trustworthy existence....

that all I said doesn't help me not to think about you!!!