Some words can never be forgotten...can never be forgiven...
And Im happy that I have learnt not to!!

Going to "shomal" after almost six years!! With bunch of youngesters...
The only thing which makes me happy about this trip is getting the cam and click as many as possible..
You will be my eyes there :)

Everybody's rescue is impossible!!
Not all are made to reach the final line!!
Not all are meant to be happy!!
Not me and you and others could change fate even a bit!!
Not even god with its so called power could make a difference!!
Not a colorful future could be handed over to us if we really wish for it and work our ass out!!

And I hereby declare I don't believe in none of the above!!!
I declare that our life or at least mine is written for a happy single piece of music, smile or a kiss and I know it and respect it and die for it.

Let me give you wings!!!!

I was trapped in post-football chanting for hrs...but it was totally fine :)

Gosh, Tehran and indeed the whole country is on fire...

It's election today...to select the president...to figure out who is gonna fuck us and the country more in next 4 years... And we are all a part of it...even if we don't vote!!!
It has always been the endless none sense battle of reformists and fundamentalists... Last time it ended evolving a new movement, the so called Green movement, and this year they invented the violet movement...saying its the brused green!!!

Home sweet home... And I have never been scared this much...and I can hear her snoring from her bedroom which relieves me!!!
And getting old is scary...

These days I just make myself busy with mom...got her a huge book shelf today and still half of her books are here and there...we need to get one more maybe...
And while cleaning her stuff I found so many amazing items and the best was a Quran with my dad's handwriting on the last page; writing down three birth dates and exact timings of all three of us.... Mine was 10:30 pm!!!

لعنت به تو به خاطر كامنتهات... كه دلمو تركوندن...نه هيچ چيز ديگه!!

شازده کوچولو می گفت : گل من گاهی بداخلاق و کم حوصله و مغرور بود اما ماندنی بود.
این بودنش بود که او را تبدیل به گل من کرده بود!

همينُ من ميخوام...!!!!

Today was hell of a day...
Nelson passed away..
Hadad is out of the election race!
My granny's sis is dead!!
And had a terrible fight with my elder bro!!!
And nothing works better than the hugest possible mug of black coffee and smokes before bed!!!!

p.s: KH has reached to the point that its scary to live alone and I had to approve the fact we all need someone for the sake of getting old! Well, maybe that's why I'm thinking of having a baby !!!!!

Aaaakkkkhhhhh...Lanat be to....

And zayanderood is full of water!! And I love walkin by its sides...at night...

choices...boundaries...feelings...and the way we look through things...
Time o time, run faster...I need to figure!!

به خاطر مردمست که میگویم
گوشهایت را کمی نزدیک دهانم بیار،
دنیا
دارد از شعرهای عاشقانه تهی میشود
و مردم نمیدانند
چگونه میشود بیهیچ واژهای
کسی را که اینهمه دورَست
اینهمه دوست داشت.

I'm in this beautiful car...with these beautiful girls...but I live in another world... They speak, and I smile and they look me into eyes.. Whispering what's wrong with her.. And I keep smiling... And it works...since they stop staring and I fly back to my lively world of dreams and memories...
And guess what! You are in every bit of it :))

یک لحظه خواستم؛
چون کودکی که ناشیانه دست در آتش فرو بَرَد،
.....خواستم تو را

The attractive confrontation of sanity and madness always takes us in bringing up the question marks of why or how or which... And these will never be answered unless we jump in and try, regardless of the result! And it has always been scary to do so..knowing the fact that there is no guarantee..
However, the joy and amazing taste of losing everything to the power of love is incredible.. It's beauty and sweetness, it's warmth and pleasure, it's wonderful gentle touch could govern the moments and suddenly all fear is gone... And it's just you.. You and everything about you...
I trust my heart, yet letting sanity to roam around. Not to balance anything, just to make sure that I'm trustworthy enough to let you lean!!
Don't be afraid...time will lead us all and fate is in the corner!!
Let me take your hand...

دست از نگاه مشروطه خواهت برندار بانو
من با تمام سر كشي هايم
عاشق استبداد صغير بازوانت هستم...

به چه مي ارزد عشق
به يكي دل
كه چه آرام شكست هيچ نگفت
به دوتا چشم
كه نگاهش همه تر هيچ نخفت
يا به صد خاطره
كز ياد تو مانده است بجا
به چه مي ارزد عشق
من ندانم توبگو
به چه مي ارزد عشق

Eshgh agar eshgh e to o aashegh agar man basham...
I can't even open the book.. Even look at those words..
Thanks black coffee... Thanks for listening...for being there, always... No one has ever done that for me...

There is this ship which runs in vacuum, in total darkness..towards sun. And I'm travelling to find sunlight..and the ship has no crew..it's just me and me..alone..like always..and I know the future is mine when I find the sun which is million kilometers away...thousands of year...and the ship is not even mine!!
Sanity is left on earth it seems!!

These lanes...every inch of it takes me back to memories I am running away from...it's so god damn hard to breathe..and this is the first night since you left..and I'm sure I'm not gonna sleep for nights...this place is killing me and I have to stay in it and suffer and learn!
It's gonna go on and on and on...