I guess I need to take a break before I totally go nuts...will miss u black coffee!

Smoking kills, right?

Or maybe the cigarette factories must use other stuff which works faster!

It ain't cool to keep the users waiting...

Dead man walking...

Fucking accept it..there is nothing in your hands...it's something else which governs everything and we all are just fucked up observers!!

And why the hell it should take 40 fucking years to realize it? 

“Man can never know the loneliness a woman knows. Man lies in the woman's womb only to gather strength, he nourishes himself from this fusion, and then he rises and goes into the world, into his work, into battle, into art. He is not lonely. He is busy. The memory of the swim in amniotic fluid gives him energy, completion. Woman may be busy too, but she feels empty. Sensuality for her is not only a wave of pleasure in which she is bathed, and a charge of electric joy at contact with another. When man lies in her womb, she is fulfilled, each act of love a taking of man within her, an act of birth and rebirth, of child rearing and man bearing. Man lies in her womb and is reborn each time anew with a desire to act, to be. But for woman, the climax is not in the birth, but in the moment man rests inside of her.” 

Loneliness the bliss!
:)

We sometimes die exactly when we feel we are alive..and it's dangerous coz we don't comprehend it!!

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that.
Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.”

Acidity is fucking back.. And I'm just trying to stay calm...
And today Parisa is reminding what I do now could be done with a fucking BSc too!!! What the fuck!! And thanks for reminding!!!

I guess I really need to rethink about the people around! As I'm trying so hard to stop the energy leakage and I don't need them ruining it!
Fuck!

Reading some stuff for tomorrow's lectures...watching Jessie J's concert with her cute British accent which turnes me on for some reasons ;) and drinking black coffee with dark chocholate and smokes..these all make a perfect Friday :)

What else do I need?! Well, you only!

Going to buy books in front of Tehran university was great today...and having coffee in ghajari cafe with artistic ambience close to shahr theater...very very nostalgic!!
Old lanes and road around Tehran university...

It's time to decide!!

چه فرقی می کند
مسافری که مبتلا به نرسیدن است
یا ایستگاهی که از تردد ِ بی تو تمام تابلو هایش سفید شده
مهم قطاریست که لای مو های تو دود شد
و تمام مقصد ها را با خود به هوا برده است ....

There are walls around, thick and cold.. And there are no holes to let the light in... and there is no door to get the fuck out...and there is no hope that someone hears me!!
And I wake up, fucking soaked and scared!!!!

Sun comes up every morning and I can't say goodnight before I hit the sunlight...
Not that I don't like it, it's just too deep to digest sometimes as I think how shallow I have been lately...
And everyday goes by and I sink more and more when I watch people fooling around wearing straps on, making out going down on each other...and I lose it even more!!
And what I crave for is unconsciousness!!!!

Drinking black coffee and smoking and life couldn't be better!! It's only my heart which is not on its right place...

Fucking tired of everything, everyone and everywhere...
I guess I need to get disappear again!!

از تمام راه هایی
که به تو نمیرسند
خیابانی ساخته ام
که سنگ فرش هایش
بوی کفش های تو را میدهد
خیابانی که
مرا از تو
دور کرده است
و هیچگاه
به خانه ی تو نمیرسد..........

ساراکاظمی