Again... :(

24th of jan!

Hell yes...

!!

:)))

به خودم آمدم انگار تویی در من بود ...

این کمی ... بیشتر از دل به کسی بستن بود !!!!!

The wound started discharging pus and blood again plus pain and discomfort in the area since last night...not feeling well at all and Back to bed again :(((

تو باش ولی موازی باش

همراه ولی لمسم نکن

میل به ترکیب یا واکنش

یا هر چی میترسم نکن

پِیَم نگرد که گم میشم

با من نخواب که کم میشم

ترکم نکن که میمیرم

بسامدهای غم میشم

به سایهی من دست نزن

که طیفی از هوس داره

طبیعت بیتاب من انقطاع نفس داره...

Work starts from tomorrow...still feeling a little dizzy but ok overall...and as usual, I hate weekends!

These days new understandings are dancing in my mind..of life...of you...and your incorrect method of dealing with your problems..and all are making me wonder, how I can trust someone who doesn't trust herself?

I guess I should sometimes stop understanding others and think a little bit more about myself, knowing the fact that life doesnot stop at each and every station, and if I decide to jump off or stay on board is a very personal decision...yet I need to know if you are gonna jump with me... if you trust me...if you wanna go to this journey with me?

How was your exam btw?

Dinner out with friends..Italian food...yum!

I want nothing more these nights than opening my chest, grabbing the heart and simply throw it out of the window....what's the use of it's beating when it doesn't let me sleep!!

Beth: do u know what I wanna do as soon as we reach NY?

Tina: what?

Beth: I wanna marry you...

I bet u don know how to pee in a bottle for a damn month :(

Yet it feels great when u realize how fucking little, powerless fragile tiny piece of shit nothing you could be!!

Oh dear solitary...with all due respect fuck off please...

Fuck it man...it's so fucking fucked up...and we just don have balls to admit it!!

Last two weeks were among the worst...getting back on my feet again...hallucination was all I experienced...and if it wasn't paghi and neush's help, I was for sure expired!!

Words aren't enough to thank..I'm just god damn lucky to have good friends around :)

Surgery + period + flu !!

What a combination to fight :)

آن روز که همدیگر را یافتیم
یافتنمان هنر نبود
هنر این است
همدیگر را گم نکنیم...

صداى تو خوب است...

I experienced the damn awkward endosonography today which revealed too many bad news :(((

Searching for a good condition second hand ass!!

Two surgeries, one minor and one very much major in a month...it seems way more complicated than what I thought :(((

There are pains that no pain killer works on em!!

Don worry, this is high temp talking :)

Got shower, now burning in fever and chill and I feel I have power over nothing, absolutely nothing...

It seems I gotta quit smoking as it stimulates the shit happens to my ass!!

Well, not bad perhaps :(

Life is about courage and going for the unknown...

Nothing helps more than a cup of warm coffee after a boring party..

Just god knows that it is hard to find the one...!!

James said...

اين روزاى برفى و سرد..آغوش تو را كم دارد...نوك انگشتان ناب تو را كم دارد...چشمان سياه پر عشق تو را كم دارد...تو را كم دارد...و من...و من تنها از امروز و فردا تعلق كمرنگ اين عشق به آينده را غمگينانه نظاره گرم...كاش كمى، فقط كمى توانمندتر بوديم...كاش....

I had the best new year celebration this year...and I owe you for making it a perfect night...

May all my love and power flows in your veins for the rest of our lives :)

Goodbye 2013...

Hello 2014!

Plz bring peace, happiness and love with you, as this fucked up world needs loads and loads of em!