چقدر برایت سخت است‌ای مادر ...
جایی در سینه‌ات میسوزد و خون داغ به رگ‌هایت جاری می‌کند...ته چشم‌هایت گر میگیرند و نفست به سختی بالا می‌ آید....
۴۰ روز که چیزی نیست...۴۰ سال هم که بگذرد یادت نمی‌رود..
خدا به تو صبر دهد مادر و به ما خشم...
آرزو می‌کنم هم صبر تو زیاد شود و هم خشم ما...

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age ghabli nagereft lotfan ino try konid!

chakerat....

behesh goftam : man mitoonam toro too yek kalame tarif konam : "ghooleye energy"!
oonam mano too ye kalame tarif kard : "strange" !!

--sobi raftam petrol pump ke benzin bezanam...dokhtar hendiye khoshgeli masoole pump bood...
ba ye labkhande gal o goshad o cheshaye khoshgelesh ye negahe kheyli mooziyane behem endakht o goft : hellloooooo baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

--agha dar sharaayete roohi-e bad hich chiz mesle goosh dadan-e farsaayeshi be ahangaaye jafang hale adam ro jaa nemiyare!!!!!!!!!
man alan chand vaghte khodamo khafe kardam ba in band-tonbooni kind of songs....
bikhod nabood haaj agha karoobi ham .....

Try to know people and love them for who they are...what they can do and what they need....
Don't like them because of what they can give u....
Don't like them because of how long they stay with u....
and don't be fucked up when your expectations are pissed....because life is gonna fuck everyone!

P.S1: I guess I must watch my language and accept that anger doesn't help
P.S2: Its really raining heavily and this is gonna keep me depressed...it's always dark and always wet! va oonayee ke khavase gorbeyee-e mano yadeshoone mifahman man chi mikesham too in vaz...ahhh

Thanks to NJ for sharing it...I just loved it...

wrong

I was born with the wrong sign
In the wrong house
With the wrong ascendancy
I took the wrong road
That led to the wrong tendencies
I was in the wrong place at the wrong time
For the wrong reason and the wrong rhyme
On the wrong day of the wrong week
I used the wrong method with the wrong technique

Wrong

Wrong

There's something wrong with me chemically
Something wrong with me inherently
The wrong mix in the wrong genes
I reached the wrong ends by the wrong means
It was the wrong plan
In the wrong hands
The wrong theory for the wrong man
The wrong eyes on the wrong prize
The wrong questions with the wrong replies

Wrong

Wrong

I was marching to the wrong drum
With the wrong scum
Pissing out the wrong energy
Using all the wrong lines
And the wrong signs
With the wrong intensity
I was on the wrong page of the wrong book
With the wrong rendition of the wrong look
With the wrong moon, every wrong night
With the wrong tune playing till it sounded right yeah

Wrong

Wrong
(Too long)
Wrong
(Too long)

I was born with the wrong sign
In the wrong house
With the wrong ascendancy
I took the wrong road
That led to the wrong tendencies
I was in the wrong place at the wrong time
For the wrong reason and the wrong rhyme
On the wrong day of the wrong week
I used the wrong method with the wrong technique

Wrong

Oh baby, baby, its a wild world
Its hard to get by just upon a smile
(yeah...) oh baby, its a wild world
Ill always remember you like a child girl

--It's raining and raining and raining....
not sure, but maybe even god is crying for us...for me....

--gahi vaghti nemishe masala ro hal kard baayad soorat masala ro paak kard,bedoone ehsase gonah o za'af....har chizi ye rahe halli dare,rahe hale manam alan ine!!!!!

--Can't sleep...again..like always...seems very difficult to switch off the engine and this time headache is added!
I was thinking what will happen when I die,the other night...will be back again? maybe already I am someone's next life!!!!!

--I am listening to some junk music! saying :
pas becharkhoonesh kamaro....!!!!!!!!!!!

خدا خوابی؟ نمی بینی؟
که با نامت، جوانانت
به سان برگ می ریزند
به دامان سیاه مرگ می ریزند

خدا خوابی؟ نمی بینی؟
و شاید آنچنان فرتوت و پیر و سرد و سنگینی
که دیگر هیچ دریایی به اعجازت پلشتی را نمی بلعد
و هیچ آتش به دست تو گلستانی نمیگردد

خدا خوابی؟ نمی بینی؟
و شاید بس که خودبینی
گمان کردی
که چون دیگر شریکی همچو فرعون روی خاکت نیست
و در دستان جلادان کتاب توست
کنون هنگام خواب توست.

خدا برخیز، بشکن آن سکوت مرگبار سالیانت را
ببین فرمان تو عرش تو را با بوی خون تازه آکنده
بر آن دشنه که در پهلوی یارانم فرو رفته کسی نام تو را کنده

خدا بشنو شباهنگام
که می خواند تو را بر بام
گلوی داغدار و تنگ یک مادر
به خون غلتیده فرزندش ز پا تا سر
و ماوایش بجز الله اکبر نیست
بگو گوش تو هم کر نیست

خدا خوابی ؟ نمی بینی؟
که داغ یاد تو دارد به پیشانی
کسی که داغ را بر سینه ی یاران نهاده
ای خدا یک جمله ی ساده!
که قرن ما سکوتت را نمی بخشد

-Finalized....I will shoot it in few days....
and I am thinking about what to cook next!
I have enough good ideas....

-Today's news are on fire after what happened yesterday...
now people replaced anger with hope... how strong or successful, doesn't matter really...
Though I believe, as long as religion is involved, hope wont help, nor anger :((((

می خواستم به شما بگویم
“سلام “

اما شما سریع رد شدید
می خواستم به شما بگویم حال شما چطور است؟

اما شما به من نگاه نکردید
می خواستم بگویم حال من خوب نیست
اما شما دیگر رفته بودید
برای همین هیچ چیز به شما نگفتم
فقط پوست موزم را زیر پایتان انداختم
تا زمین بخورید و یک لحظه بایستید
شاید این بار مرا ببینید .....


شل سیــلور استاین

Before being alone I was afraid.....not of being alone, but of liking it!!!!!!!!!!!!
and as always you exactly face what you have never expected, it happened to me also and I like it. I enjoy it and I have no problem with that....
well,what 's gonna happen later,I don't know...but right now I am very much fine...alone,sad,and fine!

Yesterday Shahrokh and I went to Bombay for some official work.
When everything was over we had to go for lunch. Obviously we preferred kolaba. I suggested Leo Pold Cafe which is a very well-known Parsi cafe but Shahrokh asked me to be patient to find an Arabic restaurant named Ideal in one of the lanes.... We reached there finally and Shahrokh ordered Raan-polo!!!!!!!!!!! which you see in the photo....and you have absolutely no idea how delicious it was......a grilled lamb leg, buttered rice, grilled tomato, and freshly baked naan....

I had a strange dream last night.
I was riding a very tall horse, 2-3 meters above the ground...she was too tall and when I wanted to stop her I was falling down!!!
Maybe this happens everyday and I don't notice it!!

Last night was the Wimbledon final match and with its all ups and downs we could finally sit down and see lovely Roger to raise his fifth trophy in absence of Nadal which effectively reduced the quality of this championship....but what is important is Roger's record on the paper who is now the best player of all time.
anyway, he doesn't have much time and must use each and every chances...

Mohesn told me today that : "mard-e ghaabel-e etemad,marde mordast!"
I am correcting him and say : "aadam-e ghaabel-e etemaad,adame mordast!!!!!!!!"

P.S: man emrooz az khodam khosham nemiyad!!!! esrar nakonid....
alan dochare oon vaziyam ke ehsas mikonam too in 30 o chand saal na tanha hich gohi tanavol nakardam,balke jaye kheyli ha ro tang kardam!!!!!! enshalla manzel ke beravam va riye haaye mohtaram ra ba chand adad sigar navazesh bedam haalam behtar mishe....

agha az in be bad hameye fa'aaliyathaaye dast be aabi yek rooz dar miyan anjam mishavad!!!!!
shode eyne terafic-e tehran!
che mishe kard,baroon nayoomade emsal,aab nist....
kholase alan rafti "wc" kardi kardi,vagarna raft ta pas farda
:o
:))

ey har kasi ke fekr mikone man kar o zendegi nadaram be joz inke donbale koon-e in o oon bedoam!!!!!!!!!!!!
hamin ja elam mikonam ke kheyli khoshhalam az vaze haazeram,kheyli kheyli daram ba khodam o zendegim hal mikonam va aslan va abadan dar fekr-e behtar kardane chizi nistam,chon ini ke hast behtarine already.
lotfan dast az sare kachale maa bardarid agha jan!
va dar morede be kar bordane kalameye doost ham bishtar deghat be kharj bedid...va faramoosh nakonid kheyli az zakhma hich vaght eltiyam peyda nemikonand va jayeshan ta akhare omr rooye del-e taraf mimanad!!!!
oonhaayee ke ghadre refaghate ma ro befahmand mimaanand va anhayee ke be har dalil rafteand,paaye khodeshan!!!!ma na tohfeye natanzim o na tokhme dozarde mikonim.....,albate shayadam ham bokonim,vali khodaayeesh ta hala emtehan nakardeim:DD

ajabbbbbbbb......