The first pre-monsoon God-damn sudden rain....and me, trapped in lab. with no power...just wishing that UPS's stand a little longer...

-Second black coffee of the day at lunch time!
I am closing my eyes to monitor, just a bitter sip..roll it inside the mouth....let all the holes and hills taste it and swallow it finally...well,it's hot and bitter and very orgasmic... !
and this feeling looks familiar...the butterfly in my stomach!!
No, I don't wanna go back to those days....
I don't...


-Turn around....Turn around bright eyes...

این روزها ما کوتاه شده‌ایم و آسمان بلند...
ما را که دیگر فرصتی برای قد کشیدن نیست...
تو سر فرود آر آسمان...

Nights...
Nights are good...
Nights are better than days....
Nights are dark...and lovely...and secure...and passionate...and kind...and long...!
Nights are better than days...
Nights are good...
Nights...

p.s:
I am writing this at night, while talking with a beautiful angel on skype!! An angel who I have never seen or may never meet in future...who knows..but she looks so close and dear...

Nothing is better than working on Saturday night in lab. when all are gone...listening to Chopin best piano and fly with each beat with a bitter mug of black coffee just on the desk ...!!!!! I just wish I could smoke here :((
I was talking with a friend today and I saw how my heart teared apart! I just saw it with my bare eyes and I am wondering how it's still beating...!!

Oh damn,I feel so good....so released...so relieved...so alive....so rigid....so fragile...so dead....
Ohhhhh...I feel damn damn good!

I cleaned my desk today and started firing some f**... new jobs on some f**... new machines and I may get some f**... results...and then what? I may feel that I have done something great...whole life is kinda crap nowadays...
I guess I should stop searching for the answers...this is life and that's the way it is....!

Aravane Rezai ROCKS!

صداهای زیادی از دور به گوش می‌رسد

...هل من ناصرا و ینصرنی

...کجاست یاری دهنده‌ای که یاریم دهد

...کجاست یاری دهنده‌ای که یاریم دهد

Yesterday was a bad bad bad bad bad day...

and this morning these horoscope lines truly fucked me up:

"You don't want to be overwhelmed by the things of the outside world, and have more time for personal reflection. But really a happy family life and contented domestic situation is what you would like most of all. So set your sights on that and make it happen."

LOST tamoom shod :((((((((
kheyli ghosse daram...hala chi bebinim az in be bad?

I received this text msg from NJ just now and I couldnt stop laughing....:)

"To ra telefon basi eshghad bovad o man dar ajabam. nagozir textat konam keh hami daani ke man kooshesh bekardam tora tamas gereftan va aan bib bib bib hami bekardi o zani marati bayan bekardi goftari ajib keh mara danesh nabood aanra, pas rahaai mara ejbar shod o tora vaghti khosh talab az khodavandegar e alamiyan ba aan nik rooye zard moo khastan hami..."

A good Sunday includes cleaning the house,washing the cloths and bed sheets,watching Tennis,have some friends over for Kabab,watch the last released "Lost" episode and go to bed!
The unforgivable part was not reading two papers which I was supposed to!!!

Roland Garros started today...
Here we go...

agha dar jahate sare kaar gozashtane ahaali-e mohtaram-e in koocheye bonbast va refaah-e haal-e mardom-e enghelaabi, az in be bad hame mirim too kare anonymo!!!!
felan vase inke ye name haaleton khoob beshe sare sobi va az depression kharej beshin in link o check konid!

http://www.in20years.com/

hich fekresho mikardi...na,jaane man fekresho mikardi???
manam fekresho nemikardam...bavar kon!!

ما که رسماً آب پز شدیم رفت. شما کول باشید و حالشو ببرید

There are two words I used to hear a lot and never searched for the meaning. Here they are:

Aka: stands for Also Known As !!
Attaboy : Word given when you do a damn good job! also used to show encouragement or approval to a boy or man. It's alteration of "That is the boy".

Started watching friends....
its cool..
and I feel very much better!!!!
try it...it works... :))

میگن دوست خوب مثل کرست میمونه. از هر چیز به قلبت نزدیکتره، همیشه تو رو بالا نگه میداره و تو رو بزرگتر از اونی که هستی نشون میده اما دوست بد مثل شورت تنگ میمونه. هر کاریش بکنی میره تو کونت
ببخشید
:)

My today horoscope :
Circumstances may not have changed very much around you, but suddenly you feel as if the sun was shining through the clouds. Everything has a little glow about it, more warmth. Though at one point during the day you may find some difficulty in relating to others - even those close to you feel a little cool and reserved. Maybe you are trying to see one tricky situation more clearly and need some time to clear your head. Don't be scared to step back and give yourself the necessary space.
Thanks to Neda....

Bad sleeping habit has come back again! and a cold morning shower also doesn't help to make me fresh.
and nothing is better than receiving a nice cup of coffee in the very morning.
and as a result, I fuck the whole world around because it is my life that I care very much about and it is me that I care very much and then I feel the stream of energy and desire in my veins and feel better and think the not-being-able-to-sleep habit is gone!
but same story happens every day!
and I realize that things are gonna be like this for the rest of my life, because regardless of what others comment, life is real and cruel and dare and short!
Thankfully I am just alive and conscious and wise!

The best communication ever:
oon shaatoote hast...vase man green apple esho begir!
:D

بدین وسیله اعلام میدارد که اینجانب به علت فراموشی تاریخ تولد "بلک کافی" به اشد مجازات محکوم گردیده که جزیات خبر متعاقبا به استحضار خواهد رسید.
ضمنا در نهایت شرم اعلام میگردد که "بلک کافی" در ۱۰ آوریل ۴ ساله شد!

خدا این صابخونه رو جّز جیگر بزنه

I feel very well....I am gonna make some decisions which will make hell of a change!
BUT,
some parts of me are calling for traditions and commitments and family and etc etc...
and someone said that there is no destiny...everything is our choice and at our hands!
huh!

oonghad hava garme ke dast o dele aadam be hich kari nemire....
2 maahe daarim garmaa mikhorim,taaze engar tabestoon shoroo shode!
Ahhhhh....

گاه کوچکم میبینی و گاه بزرگ...نه کوچکم و نه بزرگ . خودت هستی که دور می شوی و نزدیک

khaahi beshavi movafagh
yaad begir begi na!

ino khodam hamin alan soroodam!!

Today morning I was driving to university and saw this on the back of a Santro:
Kun united Hundai!!