I wanna be wrong!!!!!!!!

And the controversy comes when your mind and your body don't grow synchronously! Welcome to my confused worldddddddddd...

I need around 500 g happiness. Would you sell it or at least let me know where to find the damn thing?!!!?

I know that you know that how our emotions and feelings control every corner of our body...how easy we become high or down just by a finger touch of our heart...how stupid is life and all our understandings knowing the fact that we don't have much control over it and a slight deviation can just make it all flipping...how much I miss remembering those days I was alive and hopeful and in love...and how much I hate what life has made out of me!!

Can I live back in those moments please?!!! 

I have made such a mess in my last paper...I cant believe it...and the poor ref. has written me almost a huge paragraph saying that hw couldnt understand two of my tables!!

My god, This is not fucking acceptable....absolute unacceptable mistake!

FUCK!

 

Today in Monday and I feel a bit better, I could leave home anyway!! It has started raining from yesterday and I am sure that this place is the most beautiful place in the universe in monsoon.

I can't handle the anger inside...it's consuming my cells...and I am tired...I hope time will defeat it again!!

While having lunch, after this lady's viva, i was chatting with the guys...and we reached to the point that its good to be different and I love to be different and to be different one should pay the price...

Now I know why I have paid the price all these years!!

Suddenly many things became clear...

Sweet...

Watched Prometheus today. The idea of existence of some so-called engineers who have created and later left us...The lame idea of the creator which still remains unanswered for the lack of knowledge and fate. But who has engineered the engineers? and that's the reason the leading actress doesn't go back to Earth and decides to search for it.

I liked the philosophy and idea that even such a solid theory like Darwinism can be wrong...

We may think at the end of the day that who cares about the creation. This is the shit we are made in and have to survive, no matter what.

I like Charlize, though she was not a leading one here!

Lunch : Aloo paratha which was dipped in gee, and I feel the oil in my blood!!  Some geeless Purification please...
Btw, I cut the rice and I have lost almost 4 Kgs :)

God, why i feel so shit and angry?

I think love is nothing but the truth
Something inside of me, something inside of you
Love is faith and loyalty
Love is sharing, love is to believe
I think that is what love could be
And so much more 'cause love is deep

Back from Goa...
God...I missed home too much!!

How far this could go...the power of my fingertips...my voice and my heart...the look which people cant stand, or the anger of not letting you in...and it's me now, and all I can or can't do...and being alone has just amplified the scary part of it, reminding the coming bad days...and who cares...as nothing around is real, and we all are simmered in this fucking uncertainty and believe me, the pain is not only in the eyes of  the beholder!!