Just woke up from my worst nightmare ever!!!!!

:((((

Thank you BBT :)

I hate weekends and you know why!!

The funny part is I reach early every morning..and it sucks!!

بگذريد اى روزهاى بى فايده...بگذريد...امان...

دلم هواى كوى تو ميكند مدام... صداى صدايت را محتاجم...كجايى زيبا...

They talked over phone it is said!!!

Cheers to roohani :))

First day at school...reached early...fucked up Tehran's traffic...waiting for roohani's speech at UN...slowly getting lost again as you insist pushing me away through this never ending miserable misunderstanding...jammed satellite channels...I see love everywhere...and I miss you!!

برای لب گرفتن از فاجعه تیرمی کشم 

روز های من این است 

سیگار به سیگار 

از خدایی که لج می کند 

تا پیشانی پشیمانم 

هوا خونی ست ...

از دست می روم 

از رو نه !

به پایت نشسته ام 

به گردنت 

شانه هایت 

به دو فنجان قهوه که در چشمانت سخت می سوزد 

پای سایه ات ایستاده ام 

روی کاشی های لاجورد که فصل غرق 

دل به دریا می زنند و از دیوار می ریزند 

تقویم من این است 

اتفاقم دیگر 

می افتم 

در آغوشت که شایعه است 

و این که چند تکه می شوم 

بماند برای شعری دیگر ... 

Lets take care of each other...take care of our love...our story..

اول مهر ١٣٩٢...

يه فصل جديد...يه شروع جديد...يه زندگى جديد...همش با تو...

It's my first autumn in Iran after 10 years...sounds strange, very strange, and still no connection...I'm trying really hard to fit myself in everything here and it looks very hard!!

Watching "gloomy Sunday" is the only cure for a Sunday night without you...

Missing you...

Im in love, with or without...

You seeded the idea into my head..and now I can't stop thinking and dreaming about it!!

Reunion is the matter of desire with a pinch of luck, right?

It feels so good to meet friends after a while...those I shared life with, life with, past with...days my only concern was graduation and playing basketball...more than 20 years ago...days of youth and thunder...

And this was the best Friday of the year...and don't ask why!!

Never enjoyed the miraculous combination of alcohol and loneliness...and now I just wanna fly away like a sea gull, like Jonathan...

And Rod Stewart just stimulates the mystical surreal me!!

What I miss is your god damn sweet lips...

My heart is full of shit..and yours too perhaps, otherwise why we are where we are now? What are the excuses to act like this? To avoid each other? If this is called love, then why we look different from usual lovers? Why we don't fill each others world with peace and happiness? Why this fucking smart phone is the only thing in the world I hang on to? Why I'm running away from all humans around? Why you are not happy deep down?

Why? Why? Why?

Geez, I'm sick!

Roohani and NBC! Cool...

به سان رود

که در نشیب دره

سر به سنگ می زند

رونده باش

امید هیچ معجزی زمرده نیست

زنده باش

"هوشنگ ابتهاج "

Extra sugar please, I can't handle the bitter anymore...

And some more oxygen would be nice, can't breathe these days....

I can watch "You've got mail" for another 10 times!!

We must watch it together once :)

Getting down on one knee, taking your hand and say it in your eyes; will you marry me?

And you say, Hell yes..

And this is not just a dream...I make it come true..you'll see!!

Iran's Free style wrestling is world champion now after 48 years.

Nasrin sotoodeh and two others are free now. 

Zanganeh, the beloved minister has reread the Iran India oil contract to Irans benefit, gosh I adore him.

I can't bare so many good news in one day!!

And I'm going down badly with flu. Well, universal balance anyways!!!!

Going through the archive reveals an amazing change within years of experiences...and I was always avoiding it as I was afraid of confronting the fact that I too, have been changed dramatically...

Well, this ain't a confession, yet, I now know I better stop panicing...we all change and we will lose it all if we don't accept it..

And time just bites our bones and the proof is me, getting restless and weak at the same time..

And you love, beware of its corrosive touch..it would demolish it all!!!

Just watch out...

My score shows vata 2, pitta 3 and kapha 5. So basically I'm a kapha!!! Its associated with the earth element and This means im protective, nourishing and stable...

Hah!!!

خيال كن روزگارم رو به راهه...

خيال كن رفتى و دلم نمرده...

When pain is way too deep to handle we all run away...and what else could u do? 

Now I just need to be saved before I fall down...and remember, I trust you and your love!

This is how life is gonna work: sit back, relax, don't trust and fuck whoever wanna get close. 

Side effects: well, you may feel empty at times and need a kiss or cuddle occasionally, you may lose the deep taste of sharing or caring or same stuff, and you perhaps will die alone.

Morals: you will be bloody SAFE!!

p.s: There is never a guarantee in life. We feel and decide accordingly. And depending on how good we are in dealing with life and its ups and downs, and how sharp we are, we decide and we accept the consequences. The answer is not always what we demand, and that's the beauty of it!

p.s 2: I'm sure, there may come a day I find you and say it into your face that we deserve each others love! And we won't afraid of what we lose and what we gain. There will be just one word and that is US.

p.s 3: ....!!

I beleive there is always a connection between the hair style and you!

I discovered myself when I shaved half my head last night, and the liberation it offers is priceless! And it doesn't matter at all if you like it or if you look smart, as you have just needed it!!

Lift your glasses!

I never understood why people lie. Does it come from insecurities, weak points or it is just a mehod to build up a faster way to reach to the finish line? Does it hurt the lier too or it just becomes a matter of a habit? 

Anyhow, whatever fuck it is, I can't stand it, even for a fraction of a second!!

The blind side, watermelon and smokes, watching it alone and nothing feels better than sleeping on a single bed! Beleive me :)

I love you nadal, just this time!

Going back to Tehran tomorrow, getting ready for autumn...
Life is waiting for me and I'm waiting for it :)

Drove in the city today, passed by places I was away from for a long time...tried to recall old days...school days...graduation and my fucking marriage...
And all was cool!! 

The journey itself is beautiful..and the ending, well better to be nice but it is fine!! Will survive one way or another..

Love me and live me and salvation your way ;)

I'm at Toranj cafe, after fucking 20 years!!! The same yummy Turkish coffee...

God it's so nostalgic...

I'm home...and it's nice and warm, yet I don't belong here..but I know someday I will leave it for good!!

And this means every story has an ending, no matter good or bad. We just need to beleive in it, live for it and wait for it...

Nonesense perhaps!!!!!

Going home...to live!

Bitter moon..bitter days and nights...bitter moments...bitter moments...bitter moments...bitter moments...

Oh my sunshine, oh my permanent sweetness, oh my ultimate desire...light up my damn dark night and days...light up my world...rise and shine...just rise and shine...

Done with the articles, waiting for the next round and yet the anger and disappointment have taken me all...and yet Im in love and yet I feel you are wounded too and yet time is just making everything more difficult...

Could we, ever, by any chance, find someone who we can look into her eyes and say: she is worth it!!