Sometimes you get survived with just a piece of music!!!!
worship the singer and its guitar strings which u feel is played on your f*** nerves....
"listening to the wind of change"....

گویند سلطان محمود غزنوی جلوی پلکان قصر ایستاده بود که یکی از شعرای درباری(عوفی) را دید و از او خواست که وقتی سلطان پا به پله اول می‌گذارد مصراعی بگوید که سلطان حکم قتلش را بدهد و وقتی سلطان پا به پله دوم گذاشت مصراع دوم را چنان بگوید که نه تنها اثر مصراع اول را از بین ببرد بلکه شاعر را شایسته پاداشی گران کند و همینطور در ادامه ... شاعر قبول کرد و سلطان پا به پله اول گذاشت. شاعراین چنین سرود: . . . . .

سالها بود تو را می کردم
همه شب تا به سحرگاه دعا

یاد داری که به من می دادی
درس آزادگی و مهر و وفا

همه کردند چرا ما نکنیم
وصف روی گل زیبای تو را

تا ته دسته فرو خواهم کرد
خنجر خود به گلوگاه نگاه

تو اگر خم نشوی تو نرود
قد رعنای تو از این درگاه

مادرت خوان کرم بود و بداد از پس و پیش
به یتیمان زر و مال و به فقیران بز و میش

یاد داری که تو را شب به سحر می‌کردم
صد دعا از دل مجروح پریشان احوال

وه که بر پشت تو افتادن و جنبش چه خوشست
کاکل مشک فشان با وزش باد شمال

عوفی خسته اگر بر تو نهد منع مکن
نام عاشق کشی و شیوه آشوب احوال

-I made a very good coffee last night...and niloofar called me GCD!!!!!
(P.S: CCD stands for "Coffee Cafe Day"....)

-I am just flying between Graphene and Graphane sheets, hopeful to find an unsolved problem....and this little task doesn't seem easy at all!!

-man ke del be to daadam....chera bordi ze yaadam.......
aakhe aadam cheghadr bayad chiz yaadesh biyad ba shenidane ye ahang...ah....

agha alan dar haale haazer ghesmate kaariye life sucks....
badan o nemidoonam!!

And all I have to do is hold you
There's a racing within my heart
And I am barely touching you

Turn the lights down low
Take it off, let me show
My love for you insatiable
Turn me on, never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you insatiable

دیشب جایی نشست بودم و کافی میزدم...دور و برم رو که نگاه کردم دیدم حتا زندگی‌ در اینجا رو به مملکتم،وطنم،کشورم ترجیح میدم!
اینجا کسی‌ در بنده ریش و پشم یا قد مانتوی کسی‌ نیست.کسی‌ نمیگه به چی‌ گوش کنید یا چه فیلم یا کانالی ببینید! کسی‌ شما رو بر اساس یه سری فاکتور‌های احمقانه طبقه بندی نمی‌کنه و انگشت رو خصوصی‌ترین نقاط زندگیتون نمیذاره....
مساله همینجاست که ته تهش اینجا ته ته دلت آرومه و همین یه دنیا می‌ارزه... حتا اینجا

I forgot to write about 2012, the movie which I watched the other night and was not at all satisfactory!!!
I was expecting a fully special effected piece which according to its producer was not possible to be made couple of years ago,due to its professional special effects!!! but what I saw was very low class montages here and there plus a very unreal story of a usual hero who saves something(his family this time) and nothing happens to him.
Even the US president was such a HUMAN! that didn't leave his country for his own safety and stayed by his people who couldn't afford to book a 1 billion dollars ticket on a ship and survive!!!!!!
I don't know but I really expected more after waiting a lot to get the ticket before the hall gets full and spending more money!
The only thing I liked was the scientific justification behind it though....which strangely was discovered by an Indian young astrophysicist and now I am suspicious if the producers had a glance at Indian market..believe me, I never saw the theater to be house full for three consecutive show times for an English movie before!!!

دفترچه خاطرات ترکه : خیلی فقیر بودیم ،هیچ پولی نداشتیم ، مادرم قادر به زاییدن من نبود ، خاله ام مرا زایید

ترکه سرش رو می کنه داخل حجرالاسود بوس کنه ، سرش گیر می کنه , میگه گلط کردم دیگه گناه نمیکنم ، خدایا منو نخور

ah,
emrooz bi khod o bi jahat asabaniyam!!!!
taghriban hoseleye khodam ro ham nadaram....
ah...

Dishab bazam khaabe babamo didam!
yani alan kojast?!?!?!?!?!

I am in lab....its raining outside and I am working inside!
I am listening to Beat it, flying with the rhyme while playing with the keys on keyboard moving from desktop to another,drowned by numbers and formulas and THINKING how far I can go like this!
My whole atmosphere has become research and papers and thesis and post-doc and etc etc etc....
What about other dimensions??
What about being myself, a human with demands and desires??
Where and when did I lose myself?
Where and how I should look for myself?

بارالها، ما حال نداریم به راه راست هدایت شویم. خودت راه راست را به سوی ما کج کن

Back to lab. after 4 days!
agha ye alame kar o zendegi rikhte roo saram vali 2 ta dast bishtar nadaram!!!!!!!
rasti,dele khosh mikhay che kar,joonet saalem bashe!!!!!

It is pouring outside....!!!
and has become very very cold....
and I am not recovered yet and feel bored with always being sick :(
and work is jammed and me either!
and a way out is needed.
and the way in is lost!!
and surrounding is blurry,
and.....

I watched Fire last night....a very very different hindi movie....no dancing,no colorful saris...
Film starts with the hidden but clear pain of a joint Indian family who undergo two failed marriages..... and is followed by a gradual love which is formed and grown between two heartbroken ladies....

Young Radha's mother: [in the very beginning of the movie] What you can't see you can see. You just have to see without looking.....

Sita: Isn't it amazing? We're so bound by customs and rituals. Somebody just has to press my button, this button marked Tradition, and I start responding like a trained monkey. Do I shock you?

The Women of Iran’s One Million Signatures Campaign: The Activists

They are Women of the Year because: “One Million Signatures seized every opportunity to show the world that they do not agree with the discriminatory laws in Iran.”
—Shirin Ebadi, Nobel Peace Prize winner and 2008 Glamour Woman of the Year

Read the whole article here please.

Yesterday was a day of protest ,street marching, blood and tear gas, brutal beating and etc etc in Tehran. People try to keep the faith and hope and make a change. I tried no to check the news till a friend was online and told me how they beat her and how she was itching in whole body because of peper gas!!!
To overcome the stupid feeling, I cut my hair very very short and finally went to watch Michael Jackson's This is it very late at night....remembering MJ and all his hits and confessing he was a legend really...
and by the way, I loved his very cool lead guitarist,Orianthi Panagaris.

People have different opinions about MJ...but I love his music and never care what kind of a human he was!!!! He was supposed to be an artist and fill the ambiance with some good pieces which he did perfectly.
He may rest in peace.....

قانون 40 نیوتن: اگر با سرعت نور پشتک بزنی... می تونی به کونت چشمک بزنی

vase mede dard mamoolan migan cigar nakesh....
mashroon nakhor....
khoob va sare moghe ghaza bokhor!

be man goftan akhabre Iran o nakhoon!!!!!!!!!
khoda farda beheshoon rahm kone....

گاهی‌ حرفات اونقدر دلمو میلرزونه که نفسم بند میاد...
هیچ دقت کردی گاهی‌ که باهم حرف میزنی من یهو خفه میشم...اون دقیقا همون وقتیه که یه جریان عجیب از ته حلقم شروع می‌شه و میاد پایین..یه جریان عجیب و قریب با یه مزه خیلی‌ ناشناخته که در عین حال کلی‌ تصویر‌های شناخته شده رو واسم زنده می‌کنه...
هیچ دقت کردی چقدر دلم برات تنگ می‌شه و من بهت نمیگم!
هیچ دقت کردی زندگی‌ چقدر بی‌ تو بد رنگ و بی‌ مزه است

... چقدر خوبه که هستی‌

-Playing basketball, full court,after a long time....
Still stuck to the current complicated situation...need a real break and recovery....

-Writing here is sometimes so difficult!!!!!.....I don't feel to be home!!!!...

-I wish I could I stay with you...I wish I could....