Bad day...bad news...
Dr. Shahriari, a faculty of Shahid Beheshti university was assassinated and dead and her wife is badly injured....He was a physicist...and well, atomic physics!
and this is when science is at the politics' service.

And the Oscar goes to.....Mr. President!!

p.s:
I am not sure, if at all he exists, God I mean, has any idea in what a deep shit we live down here....
He needs to get an idea too,perhaps!!

I have several buttons,installed for different purposes:
One to switch off my emotions!
One to restart my operating system!
One to intensify my sense of work!
One to erase my memories!
....
..

But none works!!!!!!
Wired!!

I don't know where we are going,
I don't know who we are,
But I can feel your heartbeat...
Stop stealing my heart,
I can feel your heartbeat...

STOP the Earth, I want to get down!

الان داشتم یه سری ای‌میل می‌خوندم...مال ۳-۴ سال پیش...و یک وبلاگ دسته جمعی کشف کردم که من و آرمان و فرشید و علی‌ و شرمین و غزال توش می‌نوشتیم!!!!!!!!!!

وای خدای من،
چقدر من عوض شدم...
کف کردم خودم

Being in love is not a complicated mechanism, we make it so!
The main difficulties are being and remaining loyal, consistent, rational, honest and romantic and understanding the importance of some definitions like "space", "change","desire" etc.
But when all these come to our own experience, we fuck em up...following by millions of reasons to justify....
I believe the concepts of marriage or partnership as most of us have experienced are just a total misunderstanding which is very much affected by our religion,race,culture or traditions and it is reasonably hard to deal with outside of the shell's requirements.

Well, to make the changes:
Lets let go of them and just follow our instincts...
Lets not to make things more difficult than what they already are...
Lets learn how to share and love unconditionally...
Lets find a way to express our feelings and emotions as easy as reading these words...
Lets...

Frank comments?

--It's said there are two kinds of people in this world, those who have been in India and those who have not!!!!
and it is not fate that decides,its far beyond it....

--Winter has not started yet and its still damn hot these days...and was raining last couple of days! Its obvious, God is into something :)

--"The L word" :
Bette is calling Tina from NY,telling her that the senator is willing to sleep with her!
Tina: Why r u telling me this now? r u asking for my permission?! Do it if this is what you want to do....
Bette: No, I don't ask for your permission and I don't want to do it. I just want you to care. Do you care?
Tina: silence
Bette: I'll go...and she left the flat telling senator that her girlfriend is waiting for her to fly back to LA.
(and she was damn bloody heartbroken)

Never say you know cats unless you spend a complete day with one!

Which one is more desirable:
Having someone to go to sleep with or having someone to wake up with?!
or none?!!!!

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

**********************************************

I know, you need these lines a lot...I know you don't have good time these days ...I feel how distracted you are and how much you need some comfort there...

May you find some darling...
May you find some....

Nothing heals the wounds better than time and working hard!

--Had a terrible night...
and it was raining and I had back-ache and my stomach was paining as I thought its melting right inside me!
I am in lab now...not feeling very well still, but much better...I guess I really should control my smoking...
:(((

--I am writing my paper...wish me luck... :)

I feel different...
I feel free...single...and unobtainable!!!!

shishe nooshabaro dashti?!

for you....

Which L Word Character Are You?
Bette

You are not quite schizophrenic, although, you have two distinct sides to your personality. One side is dominated by control and strength; it is conservative and traditional in addition to being empowered by the mind. On the other hand, one side is empowered by the spirit and body. This side craves beauty and the arts. It is fiery and intense but not out of control. It is centered in its liberty. You can fairly be called unique. You are distinct, a leader, unmatchable, a true Venus.

p.s:
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

From expired county:

بیا همینطور بی درنگ
بی خداحافظی
بی بقل
بی حتی یک لحظه مکث کوتاه
هرکدام برویم سراغ سرنوشتی جدا

این بازی کشدارِ جانکاه که میکنیم
شاید تاوانش سفیدی زودرس گیسوی سیاه من باشد
که روزی تو را واله‌ی خود کرد
یا شایدحتی بدتر
باعث سردی باورِ گرم تو شد
که روزی آمد و مرا مومن کرد

Today I woke up hearing Nil screaming, as she found a Lizard in the kitchen.
and my day started killing the poor guy!
and I remembered I did the same when I was in Singapore...

I look more like a serial killer perhaps!

p.s1:
May have to travel to IIT Delhi mid Dec. for a conference which I am not interested at all..believe me, attending a conference or workshop,even at IIT Delhi is pretty boring!

p.s2:
Listen it very very load, with earphone,5 times, you'll feel much better!! I bloody promise :)

Well if Lady Luck gets on my side
We're gonna rock this town alive
I'll let her rough me up
Till she knocks me out
She walks like she talks,
And she talks like she walks

And she bangs, she bangs
Oh baby
When she moves, she moves
I go crazy
'Cause she looks like a flower but she stings
like a bee
Like every girl in history
She bangs, she bangs

I'm wasted by the way she moves
No one ever looked so fine
She reminds me that a woman only got one thing on her mind

She bangs:by Ricky Martin

We have installed Windows7 on one of the best machines in lab which due to some hardware difficulties was never used, but it has an excellent graphic card to play computer games, and imagine the queue now!!!!!
We started with NFS and FarCry waiting for more to be downloaded.
and this is called an excellent research lab!

I know...I am weak when I make mistakes...
and I am sure I am strong enough not to make any!!!!

Btw,
man eynaki shodam!!!

"Behind Blue Eyes ": Limp Bizkit, featuring Halle Berry

Behind Blue Eyes , by: Limp Bizkit

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies

But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies

Smoke,
listen to Vivaldi,
drink black bitter coffee,
read,
work like a machine,
block your heart and emotions,
switch on and off all your communications whenever you want,
stop being a fool, searching for love or same fucking issues,
remain angry,
try not to forget and forgive,
just use others feelings and emotions and hearts for time pass,
become a cold-blooded asshole like all around you,
and enjoy life just like them, and I mean them, no exceptions!!

p.s:
I told Nil the other day that Black Coffee has become bitter these days, and she commented because it has become more real!!!!
She was bloody right...

Simply adore em all...

--I smoke like hell these days...
I wish I could rewind some parts of my life....not to change them, to redo them!

--Nil and I are watching "The L word" ever night...laughing and crying with the characters...living with em...sharing their fucked up lives...smiling when they fall for each other and burst into tears when they fail...

--and that's not the shape...shape of my heart....

You know what,
you take care too much..
you sacrifice too much...
you spend too much...
you please me too much...
and finally you become someone else...that is totally someone new and is not the same person I fell for!

I know you said em all...I read your mind!!!!!!!
Fuck...

Being single doesn't mean there are no options.
It means there are multiple chances!!!

All people get fucked up in their life and you are not the only one baby...you are not the only one...
It just helps you to understand that not everyone in this world deserves to love and to be loved, not even you! and that love is not the optimum factor to live for...

Being minority has its own side effects, even when they claim to understand.
Learn it and remain angry and use your hatred to fuck em all!!
Good luck babe...

The huge change I was talking for years happened finally!
Now I feel light, pure and free...

There is a one line command for it:
"kick love out of your miserable life and you'll be fine!"

Forced holiday from 3-7th.....
Ah,
This is the only thing I can't stand for!!!!

By the way,
today is the last day you find black coffee at this URL.
No complains later on please!!